Home. Alone. Again. Oy.
Tomorrow the bikers come. that should be exciting. Home in 3 days. Eeek
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Holidays and such
Things have been busy, and I don't have the patience to write about it.
Last week was Yom Hashoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day), and I stood on a hill up North in Naharayim, near the "Island of Peace" when the siren went off. We were near a highway and most cars kept driving, but one or two stopped. I couldn't see, but I am guessing the drivers got out. The conversation about the Holocaust and Genocide the night before was heavy, but not enough. The Jordanians know pretty much nothing about the Holocaust. I am finding that political views and ideas about history aren't changing, and its disappointing.
Tonight starts Yom Hashoah. I was back and forth about attending the Kibbutz ceremony, but in the end I went with 4 or 5 people from my program. I'm glad I went, but it makes things complicated.
Thursday is Independence Day, and I am going to a big regional party at Yotvata, another Kibbutz nearby. I only know of 1 Jordanian whose coming, after hearing about the reason.
I am starting to question my questioning, not exactly becoming Zionist again, but realizing its not all bad. Things are getting all complicated. I thought moving down here unto this Zionist Oasis, and entering a bubble of Arabs and Jews and Others would help clarify things for me. But lately it's just getting more and more complicated. How do I resolve this? Maybe I need to spend more time here in order to figure stuff out.
A week from now I will be on a plane home. I am kind of excited, but mostly freaking out about it. I think a week away will be good for me, but I am nervous to go back to the states and see family. It's been a really long time. And everything is changing with moving and such, and I've been so bad about keeping in touch. Any Americans going to be in New England next week, want to get together since I haven't seen you in a year? Let me know...
Back to contemplating what the hell I am doing with my life.
Last week was Yom Hashoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day), and I stood on a hill up North in Naharayim, near the "Island of Peace" when the siren went off. We were near a highway and most cars kept driving, but one or two stopped. I couldn't see, but I am guessing the drivers got out. The conversation about the Holocaust and Genocide the night before was heavy, but not enough. The Jordanians know pretty much nothing about the Holocaust. I am finding that political views and ideas about history aren't changing, and its disappointing.
Tonight starts Yom Hashoah. I was back and forth about attending the Kibbutz ceremony, but in the end I went with 4 or 5 people from my program. I'm glad I went, but it makes things complicated.
Thursday is Independence Day, and I am going to a big regional party at Yotvata, another Kibbutz nearby. I only know of 1 Jordanian whose coming, after hearing about the reason.
I am starting to question my questioning, not exactly becoming Zionist again, but realizing its not all bad. Things are getting all complicated. I thought moving down here unto this Zionist Oasis, and entering a bubble of Arabs and Jews and Others would help clarify things for me. But lately it's just getting more and more complicated. How do I resolve this? Maybe I need to spend more time here in order to figure stuff out.
A week from now I will be on a plane home. I am kind of excited, but mostly freaking out about it. I think a week away will be good for me, but I am nervous to go back to the states and see family. It's been a really long time. And everything is changing with moving and such, and I've been so bad about keeping in touch. Any Americans going to be in New England next week, want to get together since I haven't seen you in a year? Let me know...
Back to contemplating what the hell I am doing with my life.
Holidays and such
Things have been busy, and I don't have the patience to write about it.
Last week was Yom Hashoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day), and I stood on a hill up North in Naharayim, near the "Island of Peace" when the siren went off. We were near a highway and most cars kept driving, but one or two stopped. I couldn't see, but I am guessing the drivers got out. The conversation about the Holocaust and Genocide the night before was heavy, but not enough. The Jordanians know pretty much nothing about the Holocaust. I am finding that political views and ideas about history aren't changing, and its disappointing.
Tonight starts Yom Hashoah. I was back and forth about attending the Kibbutz ceremony, but in the end I went with 4 or 5 people from my program. I'm glad I went, but it makes things complicated.
Thursday is Independence Day, and I am going to a big regional party at Yotvata, another Kibbutz nearby. I only know of 1 Jordanian whose coming, after hearing about the reason.
I am starting to question my questioning, not exactly becoming Zionist again, but realizing its not all bad. Things are getting all complicated. I thought moving down here unto this Zionist Oasis, and entering a bubble of Arabs and Jews and Others would help clarify things for me. But lately it's just getting more and more complicated. How do I resolve this? Maybe I need to spend more time here in order to figure stuff out.
A week from now I will be on a plane home. I am kind of excited, but mostly freaking out about it. I think a week away will be good for me, but I am nervous to go back to the states and see family. It's been a really long time. And everything is changing with moving and such, and I've been so bad about keeping in touch. Any Americans going to be in New England next week, want to get together since I haven't seen you in a year? Let me know...
Back to contemplating what the hell I am doing with my life.
Last week was Yom Hashoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day), and I stood on a hill up North in Naharayim, near the "Island of Peace" when the siren went off. We were near a highway and most cars kept driving, but one or two stopped. I couldn't see, but I am guessing the drivers got out. The conversation about the Holocaust and Genocide the night before was heavy, but not enough. The Jordanians know pretty much nothing about the Holocaust. I am finding that political views and ideas about history aren't changing, and its disappointing.
Tonight starts Yom Hashoah. I was back and forth about attending the Kibbutz ceremony, but in the end I went with 4 or 5 people from my program. I'm glad I went, but it makes things complicated.
Thursday is Independence Day, and I am going to a big regional party at Yotvata, another Kibbutz nearby. I only know of 1 Jordanian whose coming, after hearing about the reason.
I am starting to question my questioning, not exactly becoming Zionist again, but realizing its not all bad. Things are getting all complicated. I thought moving down here unto this Zionist Oasis, and entering a bubble of Arabs and Jews and Others would help clarify things for me. But lately it's just getting more and more complicated. How do I resolve this? Maybe I need to spend more time here in order to figure stuff out.
A week from now I will be on a plane home. I am kind of excited, but mostly freaking out about it. I think a week away will be good for me, but I am nervous to go back to the states and see family. It's been a really long time. And everything is changing with moving and such, and I've been so bad about keeping in touch. Any Americans going to be in New England next week, want to get together since I haven't seen you in a year? Let me know...
Back to contemplating what the hell I am doing with my life.
